Mall gets

Hello! It's been a while since I've posted. I've been running around so busy trying to take care of myself, and then dealing with a chronic pain flare. Yesterday my sister and I went to the mall! I told myself I was only gonna return stuff... but I ended up getting a lot of stuff I had seen shopping online that was much cuter in person. 

I was left unattended in Sephora waiting for my sister xD I haven't really been happy with how my makeup is turning out recently. I bought the highlight primarily to use under my eyes, and the other thing is just a tinted pressed powder. I use high end mostly now because Dior specifically has been kinder to my skin and eyes. I've been thinking about using a lighter base, I'll have to wait a bit to try this though since i'm still trying to narrow down what it is that's making me break out. Hopefully it isn't my new concealer since I've already had to return one, but I unfortunately have a feeling it is that since I removed all other new products and still got a clogged pore today. ugh. That would be the only time Dior has let me down. I think my skin may just not like any thicker liquid products. It sucks because i originally got concealer so I could wear lighter layers of my powder foundation and now it's given me more spots than I started with. 

Hollister was so good to me. My sister said the capris were ugly but I kinda liked the vibe, it reminded me a little of amekaji. 

Kitty :) 

A lot of my workout clothes are too big now so I got this set at Pink. They also had a sale on body care, and I really wanted to buy the watermelon body glitter gel. I feel like now that these trends are coming back I can finally look how I always thought I would look like as an adult when I was little. 

Kinda hard to tell in these photos but I found really cute accessories at American Eagle, the second thing is a belt with hibiscuses on it (✿ ♥‿♥) 

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I get my nails done on Friday and I can't decide if I wanna do easter peeps nails or if i wanna do something more general since easter is already on Sunday?? I'm already back on my bright obnoxious colors now that it's a little warmer out! 

I also still need to post about my new makeup routine once I find a way of doing makeup that I like. The eye doctor said that wearing all the heavy shimmers/metallics like I was doing increases my risk of getting another stye and it was so uncomfy and lasted so long that I got really freaked out about continuing to wear those shadows. The ones I have are really hard to wash off completely, there were always shimmers all over my face afterwards no matter how many times i rinsed and used remover. I think my look kinda depended on that really intense shimmer/glitter and now nothing I do looks right to me. I have a matte blue and a palette of satin nudes now but I haven't been able to make a look I really enjoy, something is just off without the shimmers. I feel like it makes my whole look unbalanced, without the shimmers I don't like how the rest of my face looks? That probably sounds crazy but what can I say, I know what I like xD That's why I was experimenting with different base make types, but now my skin is breaking out. I might go back to the products I used to use a year ago just with that Dior powder on top. It didn't have as much coverage, but hopefully my current spots will start fading soon anyways? My skin has gotten a lot less red even since last year I think, it's just a few red/dark spots from acne and I rarely have an active spot anymore unless I use a product that it doesn't like. Such a curse to love makeup but break out so easily o(╥﹏╥)o

New nail + this weeks outfits

The last few weeks have absolutely kicked my ass, I can't catch a break between physical and mental health issues. I haven’t been able to wear makeup for the past two weeks because I got a stye o(╥﹏╥)o I think it was from that eyeshadow that was probably 4 years old. So this week I was just focusing on wearing cute outfits. I also got my nails done!!

Luna :3 

I was sort of amekaji inspired this week. I've been exploring outfits that are more accommodating of my sensory issues. 

lol at luna sniffing my pajamas in the back

I just got this sweater on clearance at american eagle a few weeks ago because it reminded me of the kinds of sweaters amekaji gals would wear!! 

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Do you like seeing makeup hauls? I spent a kind of embarrassing amount on makeup because all of my stuff ran out or expired at the same time -_- and I had to toss some stuff due to the stye so I didn't reinfect myself. I'm really excited about everything but I'm always kind of worried it comes off as weird for me to post when I buy something really expensive. I also bought new workout clothes since I lost a few inches since I started exercising in the fall, I might want to post those too?? Going to barre is such a significant part of my life now, I started going to manage chronic pain and it's really helped.   

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I'm hoping for a better week this week. I can finally wear makeup again, the weather is slowly getting warmer and I think everything will settle into a routine soon. The change of the season is always difficult, but I'm looking forward to more sunshine and warmth ~ 

Sunday ~

 Today I’ve just been relaxing! 

My eyes are very irritated from yesterday… I don’t know why. They felt very irritated and itchy yesterday and I should’ve taken my makeup off sooner probably. I think that eyeshadow I used has gone bad. Either that or I was too harsh when I removed the lashes I didn’t like, or maybe some of both?? There was definitely some glue I had to sort of roughly comb through when I was putting on mascara. Sensitive eyes are so weird. 

I’ve been trying to find some gal make videos from current models but it’s kind of few and far between. I don’t even remember seeing these types of videos when I used TikTok, but maybe I missed them? I miss when people posted stuff like this. If you know of any Jp gals posting reiwa make please comment! I think it’s interesting to see what the trends are, even if I don’t want to wear them myself. I was hoping to get some inspo for what eyeshadow I want to buy to replace the expired one. 

Bryan’s birthday ♥╣[-_-]╠♥

Today we saw Bryan's parents for his birthday! We ate at a seafood restaurant. I didn't get food photos since I felt weird about taking pictures with his family around haha. 

My outfit! I wore my tan ugg mary janes with this. It's finally spring weather, which is so nice

Reiwa inspired make today! I don't know why I look mad, these are all the selfies I took xD I really like how this came out, even though I didn't put lashes on today. I wish I could show how sparkly this shadow is on camera!

I forgot how good quality eyeshadows feel, this is a charlotte tilbury one I bought a few years ago and am close to finishing. It might need to get tossed though because my eyes are suspiciously very itchy..  The palette I normally use is Dior but the shadows are all pretty dry and not super pigmented, even though their other palettes are normally nice. 

 I also refilled my namida bukuro stick, I got the orange instead of champagne but I think I made it work by layering lighter glitter on top. The orange alone is too dark, but they were out of stock of champagne and the others were pink which I didn't want. I forgot how nice it is when the stick is fresh, it's not pulling on my skin anymore. Note to self to replace it sooner xD 

This is the liner I use! tbh if I keep doing 90's style I don't even care about the orange end since I'll just be using pure white, but I change my mind all the time about if I want current or 90's make.  

 I used a fancy lipstick today too but tbh I'm kinda disappointed in it because every SINGLE time I use it, it dries my lips out so horribly in a way nothing else does. It even feels so creamy going on, I have no idea why it's like that. 

This is the lipstick, it's by pat mcgrath. I bought it several months ago as retail therapy, lol. 

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Here's Luna sitting in the box from one of Bryan's presents (✿ ♥‿♥)

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I tried putting on the more natural of the lashes I bought earlier this week and ... they were super ugly. I hated them and removed them immediately. If I end up using the clusters more often I'll either go with the spikes or buy more "standard" looking brown ones. The spikey ones sort of freaked me out because when I washed my face with them on they started shedding tiny individual lashes, even though I was very careful like I always am. It makes me sorta worried to wear them for more than a day, because I'm concerned I may rub them when I'm asleep and those fibers could get in and hurt my eye o(╥﹏╥)o I think I can make it work with "regular" clusters, instead of the spiky ones, especially since all the reiwa gals with exte have more wispy looking ones and 90's gals didn't really wear lashes much and if they did they were the western wispy type. I'm trying to be more in the mindset of doing what I want anyways, and not always forcing myself to copy someone else's idea in order to feel valid in my choices. 

I'm waiting for my order from this other lash company to arrive. They have a really interesting product that is little sticky tabs to put on clusters instead of liquid glue. I had a really hard time finding cluster glue that I can use and this was the only one I could find. They also had one liquid glue I can technically use, but it only comes in black and I'm not sure how that would look with my brown clusters. I'm hoping the tabs work because honestly it seems like such a good idea and will take a lot less time. 

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I've been in such a weird mood the last couple weeks, I think it's probably just a combination of all the different stresses in my life right now. I keep going back and forth on how I wanna look and nothing really ever seems right. It's driving me insane. Every time the season changes i'm never happy with my wardrobe and wanna change it somehow, but it's always hard to find things I really love. I'm trying to just take it one day at a time and just wear what I feel like wearing in the moment without taking it too seriously or worrying about how someone else will view it.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                             

 

Little rant

I’m so upset. The lash glue I got arrived and i double checked the package before applying like I always do and it has phenoxyethanol even though the website said it didn’t have it.  The only other one I found that I could potentially use is $30 or one that has really iffy looking ingredients… at least Amazon lets me return it since I haven’t even opened the package. Ugh. :(  

Little haul

 I feel like I went on a no buy last month just to blow like twice as much money this month -_- some of it couldn’t be helped though, as I realized I genuinely needed new shoes and clothes… which I guess was the point of my no buy- only buying things I actually need instead of buying on a whim. 

I’m still deciding between some shoes since my sensory sensitivities are so insane for shoes. I ordered from Birkenstock like three times trying to get the right size because their chart wasn’t very accurate for the shoe I wanted. I may just end up returning them altogether because I’m not sure and for the price, I don’t wanna end up with yet another shoe I can’t wear.  Right now I’m focused on getting- 1. A shoe that is waterproof for the spring and 2. A shoe I can wear with my dresses.

I already got these which I’ll keep since I know I like the black pair. They’re Uggs. Not super comfortable for walking all day or anything but better looking than my normal running shoes. 

I’m deciding between two pairs of teva hiking shoes for something waterproof. Like I said, other than the platforms, I can only wear one specific pair of running shoes and those are mesh so they’re very uncomfortable when it’s cold and wet. I kind of hate having to buy ugly hiking shoes but it is what it is, I don’t wanna be in pain and there’s very few shoes cut in the way I need them to be. I think I saw a 90’s era photo of a gal in hiking shoes anyways. 

I also needed new bottoms. I like wearing jeans or pants mostly, and a lot of mine don’t fit well anymore. I loved this tropical print from Hollister, and I got some plain ones at American eagle too. 

I also got these bracelets at Hollister. My arms are really small so they’re a little big but the package came busted and they fit well enough that I’ll keep them. The large one is way too heavy looking on me though xD they also have some other shell accessories I want, but everything was a little expensive for what they are so I’ll wait for a sale. Hollister really is a mainstay of my wardrobe at this point. They’re one of the few stores that has cute details like this, and they have sales pretty frequently as well that makes them much more affordable than somewhere like American eagle. 

Finally I got influenced by rinmero to look at lash clusters again. It’s crazy realizing how many sensory issues I actually have and tried to ignore … I realized strip lashes are insanely uncomfortable for me. I tried the cluster lashes last night and they’re much better. I go back and forth between wanting the full old school look and wanting something that’s more of a hybrid modern and 90’s look so I like having the option. I put them on last night with regular glue but since they don’t bother my eyes too much I need up ordering the actual cluster glue as well. I don’t really like the makeup I did so I didn’t take a photo. I’ll try again tomorrow and see what I think! I’ve been wanting to make a tutorial just for fun. 

Star nails .・✭・.

 Saturday was new nail day! 

I brought in star charms this time, since Rui got this super strong Japanese putty stuff to glue charms on with. I think this is what jp gyaru are using to glue those insane charms down. I almost did just plain without sparkles, but she was preparing the charms and I was looking at my nails and I couldn't help it, I had to ask for glitter. I think last time was the only set I've had from her that did not include rhinestones or glitter, I can't help it. 

Then... a surprise. 

 Rui gave me this bag that she crocheted herself. W H A T. I was so surprised! It's so cute and I was thinking of getting a bag with this exact type of crochet square. It even has this really nice sewn interior with lots of pockets. I think it matches me perfectly, I am so grateful. (◕‿◕✿)

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Later, my friend and I went to the craft store. 

I wanted this but I didn't need to spend the extra money. I compromised and bought the tiny one for my work bag. 

This is the craft I got to work on! It's paint by numbers but with markers, and there are 4 sheets! It was only $10 too. 

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Final product, I'm really happy with it. My eyes and neck hurt so much after 3 hours of working on it xD 

Tamagotchi trip

 Last weekend we traveled to Ohio, which is a short day trip away. I wanted to see the Tamagotchi lab while we were there. Bandai installs these huge tamagotchis in a few stores around the country, and you can connect your tamagotchis to it to get special items. You can also breed the tamas with the special characters to get unique genes, but mine were too young since I forgot to start them earlier in the week xD 

While I was there, I also picked up some tama merchandise I don't usually have access to. 

First thing was the pink meowtchi I put on my work bag! It's getting to be more keychain than bag now... 

Then I got a blind box called Angel Snack Time that has a mini figure and a case for the tamagotchi angels or P1/P2. I actually got the figurine I wanted too!! 

I was also able to FINALLY get my hands on a paradise jade forest, which has special characters on it. I've been hoping for one for months but could never find it. I'm hoping to collect all of the versions of this release, which I have so far, but I know there are two more coming out in the fall. I'll have to keep on top of those for preorders I think since this wasn't a place we'll be back at for a while!  

Valentines dates

Can you believe we are already almost done with February? I'm in such an odd mood today. I wrote a huge post and then deleted it. So much is going on in my head... 

Last week Bryan and I went on two Valentine's Day dates. We only planned one, but my sister had reservations that her and her boyfriend didn't end up wanting to use anymore, so we got to take their place on actual Valentines Day at an Italian restaurant! I actually remembered photos of my food this time too. 
 

I went for an onee look. My friend gave me this skirt a few years ago and I always pull it out for nice dates. ★~(◡﹏◕✿)

 

heart bag to be festive! 

I tried pairing it with this off the shoulder sweater since I saw some onee girls doing that. I think it worked perfectly!

First I had wine, this one was some kind of sparkling white wine that I absolutely loved. 

Then chicken with sun dried tomatoes. I'm so hungry looking at this o(╥﹏╥)o

Lastly a special strawberry shortcake they had for Valentine's Day! Everything was so amazing. 

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Then we had our originally planned date on Monday at a steakhouse. This was why I got dark and elegant nails this month! 

Took forever deciding on the shoes, because the shoes I ordered weren't quite as comfy as i thought. I ended up keeping them though, once I found out I could switch the insides. These heels were terrible to walk in, never again. xD at least I looked cute. 

I loved this drink. It was similar to a wine spritzer, but it had strawberry puree in it. 

I had a steak, but this is the potato they gave me as my side. I don't know if this evenly properly conveys how truly ENORMOUS this potato was. It was the size of probably 3 regular potatoes. Much larger than my hand. You can kind of see my wine glass and the candle holders for scale. 

Bryan and I shared this amazing creme brule for dessert ♥‿♥