Little rant

I’m so upset. The lash glue I got arrived and i double checked the package before applying like I always do and it has phenoxyethanol even though the website said it didn’t have it.  The only other one I found that I could potentially use is $30 or one that has really iffy looking ingredients… at least Amazon lets me return it since I haven’t even opened the package. Ugh. :(  

Little haul

 I feel like I went on a no buy last month just to blow like twice as much money this month -_- some of it couldn’t be helped though, as I realized I genuinely needed new shoes and clothes… which I guess was the point of my no buy- only buying things I actually need instead of buying on a whim. 

I’m still deciding between some shoes since my sensory sensitivities are so insane for shoes. I ordered from Birkenstock like three times trying to get the right size because their chart wasn’t very accurate for the shoe I wanted. I may just end up returning them altogether because I’m not sure and for the price, I don’t wanna end up with yet another shoe I can’t wear.  Right now I’m focused on getting- 1. A shoe that is waterproof for the spring and 2. A shoe I can wear with my dresses.

I already got these which I’ll keep since I know I like the black pair. They’re Uggs. Not super comfortable for walking all day or anything but better looking than my normal running shoes. 

I’m deciding between two pairs of teva hiking shoes for something waterproof. Like I said, other than the platforms, I can only wear one specific pair of running shoes and those are mesh so they’re very uncomfortable when it’s cold and wet. I kind of hate having to buy ugly hiking shoes but it is what it is, I don’t wanna be in pain and there’s very few shoes cut in the way I need them to be. I think I saw a 90’s era photo of a gal in hiking shoes anyways. 

I also needed new bottoms. I like wearing jeans or pants mostly, and a lot of mine don’t fit well anymore. I loved this tropical print from Hollister, and I got some plain ones at American eagle too. 

I also got these bracelets at Hollister. My arms are really small so they’re a little big but the package came busted and they fit well enough that I’ll keep them. The large one is way too heavy looking on me though xD they also have some other shell accessories I want, but everything was a little expensive for what they are so I’ll wait for a sale. Hollister really is a mainstay of my wardrobe at this point. They’re one of the few stores that has cute details like this, and they have sales pretty frequently as well that makes them much more affordable than somewhere like American eagle. 

Finally I got influenced by rinmero to look at lash clusters again. It’s crazy realizing how many sensory issues I actually have and tried to ignore … I realized strip lashes are insanely uncomfortable for me. I tried the cluster lashes last night and they’re much better. I go back and forth between wanting the full old school look and wanting something that’s more of a hybrid modern and 90’s look so I like having the option. I put them on last night with regular glue but since they don’t bother my eyes too much I need up ordering the actual cluster glue as well. I don’t really like the makeup I did so I didn’t take a photo. I’ll try again tomorrow and see what I think! I’ve been wanting to make a tutorial just for fun. 

Star nails .・✭・.

 Saturday was new nail day! 

I brought in star charms this time, since Rui got this super strong Japanese putty stuff to glue charms on with. I think this is what jp gyaru are using to glue those insane charms down. I almost did just plain without sparkles, but she was preparing the charms and I was looking at my nails and I couldn't help it, I had to ask for glitter. I think last time was the only set I've had from her that did not include rhinestones or glitter, I can't help it. 

Then... a surprise. 

 Rui gave me this bag that she crocheted herself. W H A T. I was so surprised! It's so cute and I was thinking of getting a bag with this exact type of crochet square. It even has this really nice sewn interior with lots of pockets. I think it matches me perfectly, I am so grateful. (◕‿◕✿)

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Later, my friend and I went to the craft store. 

I wanted this but I didn't need to spend the extra money. I compromised and bought the tiny one for my work bag. 

This is the craft I got to work on! It's paint by numbers but with markers, and there are 4 sheets! It was only $10 too. 

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Final product, I'm really happy with it. My eyes and neck hurt so much after 3 hours of working on it xD 

Tamagotchi trip

 Last weekend we traveled to Ohio, which is a short day trip away. I wanted to see the Tamagotchi lab while we were there. Bandai installs these huge tamagotchis in a few stores around the country, and you can connect your tamagotchis to it to get special items. You can also breed the tamas with the special characters to get unique genes, but mine were too young since I forgot to start them earlier in the week xD 

While I was there, I also picked up some tama merchandise I don't usually have access to. 

First thing was the pink meowtchi I put on my work bag! It's getting to be more keychain than bag now... 

Then I got a blind box called Angel Snack Time that has a mini figure and a case for the tamagotchi angels or P1/P2. I actually got the figurine I wanted too!! 

I was also able to FINALLY get my hands on a paradise jade forest, which has special characters on it. I've been hoping for one for months but could never find it. I'm hoping to collect all of the versions of this release, which I have so far, but I know there are two more coming out in the fall. I'll have to keep on top of those for preorders I think since this wasn't a place we'll be back at for a while!  

Valentines dates

Can you believe we are already almost done with February? I'm in such an odd mood today. I wrote a huge post and then deleted it. So much is going on in my head... 

Last week Bryan and I went on two Valentine's Day dates. We only planned one, but my sister had reservations that her and her boyfriend didn't end up wanting to use anymore, so we got to take their place on actual Valentines Day at an Italian restaurant! I actually remembered photos of my food this time too. 
 

I went for an onee look. My friend gave me this skirt a few years ago and I always pull it out for nice dates. ★~(◡﹏◕✿)

 

heart bag to be festive! 

I tried pairing it with this off the shoulder sweater since I saw some onee girls doing that. I think it worked perfectly!

First I had wine, this one was some kind of sparkling white wine that I absolutely loved. 

Then chicken with sun dried tomatoes. I'm so hungry looking at this o(╥﹏╥)o

Lastly a special strawberry shortcake they had for Valentine's Day! Everything was so amazing. 

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 

Then we had our originally planned date on Monday at a steakhouse. This was why I got dark and elegant nails this month! 

Took forever deciding on the shoes, because the shoes I ordered weren't quite as comfy as i thought. I ended up keeping them though, once I found out I could switch the insides. These heels were terrible to walk in, never again. xD at least I looked cute. 

I loved this drink. It was similar to a wine spritzer, but it had strawberry puree in it. 

I had a steak, but this is the potato they gave me as my side. I don't know if this evenly properly conveys how truly ENORMOUS this potato was. It was the size of probably 3 regular potatoes. Much larger than my hand. You can kind of see my wine glass and the candle holders for scale. 

Bryan and I shared this amazing creme brule for dessert ♥‿♥

Dinner with family ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊

 Today Bryan and I went to an Italian restaurant with my family! My sister's boyfriend was there, so we had almost everybody! I forgot to take pictures of my food, but I had gnocchi and a tiramisu ♥‿♥

Bryan and I both got drinks! Originally I had the second one, but we liked each other's better, so we ended up switching. 

Finally wearing my Alba skirt that I got secondhand a few months ago. I washed it and noticed there were two very small holes, so I had to get around to hand sewing them shut. Same make as usual, this is honestly the first time I have a makeup routine that I intend on continuing for many months because I love how I look so much ♥‿♥

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I realized today that my white Mac liner is really dried out and my sprakly eyeshadow stick is maybe 7 months old??? I think I should get new ones, maybe I'll go tomorrow... need to get better about writing down when I opened stuff. I don't mess around with cream products and my eyes, they're so sensitive already. My ulta doesn't have the mac liner though, so i'd have to go to the further one. I'd just order online but every time I order from ulta the box is always kinda beat up and dirty inside and outside...  what problems xD 

 I hope you had a good weekend too! Thanks for reading ~

New hair :*:✼✿

 I got my hair done today!! 

My outfit 

 

Ran was my inspo today! 

Finished hair! I got a tape in exte with the bright red so I wouldn't have to dye my hair (the rest is my natural color) and I had her cut layers and shorter pieces around my face. I'm so excited to look like Ran now ♥‿♥

Makeup get (✿◠‿

 

Today I went to Sephora after work! I am still on a low/no buy to save up for another trip this summer and because i way overspent last year rip but I had rewards points and wanted to treat myself. I learned a lot from my no buy month, and this was actually something I felt like I would use. 

I finally got a fresh berry toned blush! I used to have another one by the same brand, but it eventually got old, and besides I wear powder foundation now and that one was cream so it wouldn't work anyways. I loved it so much because it lasted forever. Definitely used it daily for a year and barely looked touched! You might think this shade would look crazy on me, but it looks like a really natural flush. When I was still on instagram I saw a video about how deep berry looks like a natural flush on pale cool toned skin, and so I started looking for a shade like this! I realized lately I really don't like the look of pink blush on me, I only like this and orange. So I hope I will end up using this as much as I used the last one! I also had $15 in credit card rewards for Sephora so I was able to buy this for like $12 :0 I'm really excited to wear it for Valentines day since I think it will match my black dress well. 

I also looked for a pear perfume for Valentines day. They didn't have a mini of the one I wanted, so I took some samples to think about it. I don't really want a full size, but I remembered I do still have a Sephora gift card so maybe if I do still want that one I'll get it. 

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That's all for tonight, talk soon ★~(◡﹏◕✿)

New nail

 Thank you for all of your kind comments on my past few posts! I don't know why but it has been a little hard for me to reach out lately so I haven't responded, but I really appreciate when you comment on my posts. It's nice to know my friends are reading (▰˘◡˘▰)

I got my valentines nails done yesterday. I'm wearing a black dress for our date, so I got red rose themed nails. Rui had this design on display and I really liked it! The roses are drawn first and then covered in chrome powder and red jelly to have that interesting transparent effect. I also have red glitter on the tips because I couldn't resist xD 

Good news ~

 No more pictures today ~ 

I gotta good news at the eye specialist. I’m supposed to go for several months of vision therapy which should hopefully cure the issues I’ve been having. What a relief. 

The only unfortunate part is that insurance doesn’t cover this, they see it as non essential which is just …. Yeah. American healthcare. Typical. My blog is an escape so I won’t write about it, but it’s stupid. I’m glad I can afford to go anyways but it makes me wonder about if circumstances weren’t as fortunate for me. 

I’m just happy I can go and hopefully put an end to another medical problem. I really hope this is the year that I start healing from head to toe. I feel a new me emerging with each day ~~ the true Rae is blossoming 

Find that gal power

 Getting ready for my eye specialist appointment today.. I’m so nervous. I couldn’t sleep last night. I’m worried about what they will tell me, or if they can help me at all. It’s my first evaluation and I’m hoping they find something fixable. 

I’m also really worried they’ll tell me I have to wear glasses forever and can’t wear contacts, I hate the feeling of glasses on my face and feel like they would ruin my 90’s gal look. 

I’m tired of feeling compromising and making accommodations. I’m already extremely limited with shoes and I feel like 90’s gal has such a focus on the platforms. I wanna look how I want without limitations. I think it’s hard to understand until you experience it yourself. When you have this vision of how you want to look and your illnesses prevent that, it adds more hurt to being sick in the first place. It can be a constant reminder that you are different. 

I’m going to have to dig deep to find my gal power this morning. This is tough but gals are tougher. 

Birthday party ~~

 I went to a birthday party yesterday! 

First time wearing this sweater! 

Tried different color make today with my new blush and eyeshadow from Christmas! I usually do the frosty color all over my eye but recently I’ve been trying out looks with navy blue on my lid like I see a lot of gals from around 1999 or so doing.  I also got new eyeliner and mascara since the others ran out and these are a bit darker brown, I don’t know if I like it but they were expensive so I guess l use them up. I also got the matching stitch necklace that goes with my ring (✿ ♥‿♥)