Catching up: Christmas!

 Hello! Today I want  to show you all my photos from Christmas and New Year’s! It’s obviously really late, but I like looking back on posts like this so I still wanted to make it. 

I’ve been struggling a lot with self image/self esteem, and I hated how I looked in these photos at first (still sorta do) so this is also a big step for me to be able to share them. 

I felt very lucky to be able to spend Christmas with my family this year, because last year all of them were sick with covid (∩︵∩) On Christmas Eve, we had a party at my parents house with Bryan‘s family too! 

It was decorated so beautifully ≧◡≦ It really felt like Christmas when I walked in, especially since our house wasn’t decorated since we had just moved in a week before. 

Presents!!

I’ve been playing Pokémon snap a lot the past week actually!! It’s so cute and I like how there’s no fighting, lol. It’s a very relaxed game!!

I felt so spoiled with these (✿◠‿◠) My mom bought them for me after I mentioned liking them when we were window shopping! I thought the bracelet was so perfect for 90’s gal too. 

Bryan and I love target birds xD

Another Pokémon controller! And this bag was a total surprise from my mother in law, I love it so much! 

This is my most favorite perfume of all time! It’s the perfect gourmand scent, it’s vanilla and sweet. There’s almost a sweet fruity aspect I think?? I love smelling like vanilla though, and I used up the travel size so I was so excited to receive the full size ♥‿♥ especially because I wouldn’t have bought it for myself, it’s so fancy!

I actually bought this for Bryan xD We moved from an apartment building with amenities to a house, and he was sad because we wouldn’t have a pool table at the house. I walked by this on Black Friday in JCPenney’s and it was so ridiculous that I had to buy it. 

Bryan got me several books from my favorite manga series ♥‿♥ It’s about the designers who work with God to design the animals on earth. Super silly and amusing, and they actually end up describing real animals and at the end of each chapter there is a fact page about the animal! They always describe the animals in a way where you wouldn’t recognize them, so it’s always funny to see their final reveal at the end. 

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For new years we typically drive out to see my dad’s family in Michigan, but Bryan actually got the cold I had before Christmas and we couldn’t go ●︿● not to be depressing, but I get worried when I don’t see them for a holiday because… well everyone is getting older and I wonder how much longer we’ll be together, and how long they’ll keep the farm. 

So anyways, this year it was just Bryan and I together in our new house which was nice! Unfortunately we do not have cable. We assumed that the New Year’s program would come through on the antennae, since my grandparents live in the middle of farmland with nothing around and also do not have cable, but we were wrong. Every single New Year’s show was either on cable or behind some ridiculous paywall on a streaming service we didn’t have. So we ended up watching some really lame one, and it was kinda hilarious. The guy was 100% in his house filming, because you could tell the camera was too close to his face. All of the other reporters were out in Nashville or NYC having huge parties and then the main guy was just in his home clearly bummed about it. It was supposedly “New Year’s around the world” but he just kept playing the clips from the UK and Singapore over and over. Lol. 

Bryan and I ended up opening some Christmas presents on New Year’s Eve because some of mine were delayed and just got there that day. One of them was a tiny cowboy hat for my long furby, lol. But it was technically a cat hat so we tried putting it on Luna xD

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Then the rest of the night we just spent watching that bad New Year’s eve special and eating fun snacks we made!! Unfortunately the power went out right after midnight and set off some alarms in our house, but other than that it was fun ╚(•⌂•)╝ Luna really enjoyed warming up by the fireplace!! 

That’s all for today, thanks for reading!! 

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Oh P.S. I got these really cursed furby shoes. I’m gonna wear them with my tropical/manba inspired outfit to a con in February as long as they get along with my feet. Look at how stupid they are. I coulodn’t stop thinking about them. I waited until there was literally only 1 left in stock in my size. This year my goal is to stop caring about what people think and furby feet are my first step.

I’m back & gets

 Hello!! Wow, I haven’t posted in forever. I’ve been up to my usual self xD kinda struggling with self image and all but i wanna get off of insta and onto blogging since maybe it’ll fix that a little?? Idk. Anyways I was talking to my friend Kieli about shopping and she encouraged me to post again

 (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ so i thought I would share what I bought! 

Everything is from Marshall’s and kohl’s. I like being close to the stores now that i moved to the suburbs but i do miss the city vibes a lot. Ironically our city doesn’t really have shops anymore, it’s mostly restaurants and bars LOL so now I am close to a few things, but the mall is farther away. 

First i got these pj’s since i needed some, and juicy is my favorite ♥‿♥ I’m actually eyeing some juicy stuff on Poshmark right now too. 

I love rude cosmetics but their powder products all have stupid phenoxyethanol as the preservative, which i can’t use, so i was excited to see these! I was a little shocked when I used the clear one tho bc they’re actually color changing and it turns super hot pink. At least it’s was only $4 LOL.

I got this skirt for really cheap in Marshall’s! It reminds me of a skirt from a 1998 egg mag that i was just reading xD 

Kohl’s has himekaji xD i can’t believe i found this there?! 

Scalp scrubbers are how i save my press on nails from snagging my hair in the shower! and i like the scalp mask for when i use the matching scalp scrub. the scrub is great and cleanses your hair and scalp super well, it’s just very thorough so i always use this right after. I also got these juicy socks. They were in a set and I thought they were all cute like this, but it turns out that only the top pair has the rhinestones and hearts. (◣_◢)

Nails! I usually like square but i wanted to try these since i liked the designs. 

Ok so did I NEED 2 purses? No. But also… maybe. I remember this velvet style of juicy bag from when I was a kid and i always wanted one so badly, but they stopped making them and they’re scalped now online. So I was so happy to find one in Marshall’s!! And I really liked the shape and shiny finish on the bottom one, plus it was only $13. 

I’m planning a handmade hime outfit for my jfashion group’ Valentine’s Day party, so i got this black sweater and tank top as a base! I ended up ordering a white one I’m probably gonna use for my outfit now.. but that’s fine bc i can just use the black sweater for Lolita. I also got some white dot tights to match that outfit! I was so in love with the fur trimmed cardigan, like i had to have it right away. It was expensive, but my sister came with coupons and saved the day (✿ ♥‿♥)

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10/15 day in

 Today I’m staying in other than my acupuncture appointment but I decided to try recreate a makeup look I did a year or two ago!!

Original pic!

I also changed my outfit to wear this cute alba sweater ★~(◡﹏◕✿)

New hair ★~(◡﹏◕✿)

 I got my hair cut a few days ago!! I’ve been thinking about cutting it short for a long time and I’m happy i finally did it ★~(◡﹏◕✿)

Luna didn’t wanna take a photo with me (⊙︿⊙✿)

My ootd for today! Just working from home but i have some meetings so I decided to get dressed nicer and put on makeup (⊙△⊙✿)

My best gal memories- Happy Gyaru Day! 10/9

 It’s gyaru day!! I wanted to share my best gal memories (✿◠‿◠)

I truly get a little sappy thinking about it xD I’ve always loved makeup, leopard print, loud colors and bling but also struggled with not fitting in and low self esteem. When I discovered gal I was attracted to the way that gals see the world. They dont get stressed out about things and they strive to have as much fun as possible and make memories with their friends. They don’t care if anyone else likes their outfit or if thinks they are too over the top, they just enjoy life and make the best of it. 

I can really say that being gal has boosted my confidence, but more importantly it led me to meeting one of my best friends ≧◡≦ And now I have friends all over the world! I get to learn so much from them and have the best time sharing inspiration and reading blog posts. 

My absolute best gal memory is the time that Sam and I got to go to an anime con at a water park! It was absolutely insane and amazing. We got super lucky to land a hotel room in the water park a the con was 4 days, so we got to party all weekend! They had enormous drinks that they let you just carry around everywhere xD 

They had this Star Trek setup where they let me hold a tribble xD  

We even got these cute professional photos taken (✿◠‿◠) I felt lime I was in a magazine! 

A few months later we got to go to my local con together, and I got to met RinRin and be in her modeling class 

I like that you can tell how much I’m smiling even with the mask on

Then there was the time that Bryan and my favorite bar down the street from us hosted a tropical night. I won most tropical ★~(◡﹏◕✿) It was also quite the endeavor since we were trying to find the drink in the pineapple all night and drank too much xD 

Bryan actually really likes wearing tropical shirts which is great for when I want to match him hahaha 

An honorable mention goes to my honeymoon where I wore gal all the time!! Of course, gal has been my daily attire for a few years now but this feels iconic since we went to a tropical island hahaha. 

Thanks for looking back at my happiest gal memories with me (✿ ♥‿♥) 

Journal 10/6 boom and life

Things have been difficult for me recently, but I’m hoping it will start to improve soon. I wanted to blog earlier but I just haven’t been feeling up to it, even when I dressed up and took photos. I feel sort of guilty for being sad on here but it helps me to write about my life, and I also kinda want my blog to be as real as possible. Like, I don’t want to be an influencer or a resource, I just want to portray my life the way it is and share my outfits and crafts and thoughts. 

My health is finally starting to get better. I recently left my general doctor because of the way she was speaking to me. I had to do my own research and read medical journals and study nutrition by myself since no one treated me with respect. Turns out I have a vitamin B12 deficiency. I saw it on my blood test results before and got laughed at when I asked if I should be concerned that it was so low. It wasn’t considered severely low so they didn’t care. After finding out about my deficiency I was able to start a supplement and I am feeling much better. My foot pain is still bad but I’m working with my acupuncturist and doing exercises to help and I’m optimistic about it. She’s the only person who I feel like actually understands my situation and hasn’t thrown me out because my pain is difficult to treat. I’m honestly so thankful for her. Anyways I’m not some like health crazed person, I just wanted to share that story because I felt so alone. I hope that if someone who reads this feels the same way that hearing this might give them courage for the future. 

Mentally it’s also been a struggle since the past 2 Octobers were very traumatic for me. Last year I was discriminated against at work, lost my job, and had to start over while still dealing with the trauma of losing my community and job the year before (also in October). So October is just very stressful for my body since it’s conditioned now to expect danger D: The unpaid sick leave helped with my stress which was good. There’s a chance I could get a full time job (I’m on a contract rn) at my current company which would be great since I’d have benefits- sick/vacation time, insurance etc. It isn’t my ideal job, but it would be so good to feel like I have something stable at least. I’m sorta not getting my hopes up because of past experiences, but I do still want it to work out. 

Onto less depressing news .. haha 

I’ve gotten a lot of my energy and strength back, so I was able to get a lot of stuff done that I’ve been neglecting! I even did my nails today ≧◡≦ I really want to get back to sewing and crafting. My surf style boom is so strong xD but sadly a lot of the clothes just aren’t around anymore even on secondhand sites, so I decided to try to make my own. I’m most excited for the t-shirt and custom fabric ideas I have. I really like to paint and a lot of my paintings are tropical flowers, so I want to convert a painting to custom fabric that I can sew with! I also want to try out making custom iron ons with my cricut. I’m not super great at drawing, but I think I can do it if I keep trying! It’s not going to be anything super complicated, just a flower and a (made up by me) brand name. I have a sketch of it, I just need to figure out how to make it look good as an actual t-shirt design. Then I can finally have the wardrobe of my dreams (✿◠‿◠)

I did this palm tree and flower design on my nails based off of a page out of one of my gal mags! I’m impressed that both of my hands turned out well, but I guess I am pretty ambidextrous anyways so maybe I shouldn’t be surprised xD 

I feel really comfortable and “like myself” in tropical 90-2000’s styles. I think it might be my long term boom ≧◡≦ I keep dreaming about how I’d design a store in my dream world haha. It’s not something I actually aspire to, but it’s fun to think about. I’d just love to create a tropical (store) escape from the real world and be surrounded by pretty flowers and designs ♥‿♥ There aren’t many themed experiences left in the world, everything is becoming corporate and warehouse-y. I would love to have a place to go to experience magic again, except my magic is tropical flowers and ego system mags xD 

I really feel more gal and free ever since I stopped pressuring myself to be like anyone else. I’m so happy that I am rediscovering myself again after going through all that shit the past 2 years. I think the path ahead is bright (✿◠‿◠)