Tea Lesson & makeup haul

 Hello!! 

Today was my first tea lesson! I didn’t take pictures since it was in the teacher’s house and I wanted to be respectful of her space. It was so much fun though! Way more complicated than I ever thought.. but I’ll get the hang of it eventually! I brought my best gal spirit and had as much fun as possible even though I was bad at it xD 

I was super anxious about going to the lesson, I barely slept last night. But getting up and putting on my outfit and makeup helped me overcome the fear a little bit. Gyaru helps me feel more confident and care free ≧◡≦ 

The hardest part to learn was folding the little cloth you use to purify/clean all the utensils and bowls. There had to be a million steps for that and I kept messing up, but it was fun regardless. Everyone was really nice and there were 2 other new students, so I got along just fine! 

This was my outfit for the day! I love these Alba capris so much (✿ ♥‿♥) It was super hot (for me anyways), like 85 degrees Fahrenheit. So I was SUFFERING but I was inside most of the time so it was okay. 

I ran to the mall afterwards which is where i took this photo, and I forgot to get a better one xD I had to do a few returns and run to Sephora. I needed to replace my weird elf contour sponge thing and Sephora redid their store brand so it’s actually all safe for me to use now :0 

This is what I got!!  A little more than planned.. lol. I wanted to try the powder and cream contour bc sometimes I feel like the cream gets blended out too much and i want to add more nose contour when I’m finished with my face, but I can’t put cream on top of powder. I also wanted to try an orange blush!! I got a trial size of the hair mask a while ago and I really liked it. My hair tends to be very dry and it tangles super easily, and this is a mask you can leave in your hair overnight. I usually gently brush it through and then braid my hair, and when I take it out in the morning it’s sorta similar to my natural wave pattern. 

I tried some other clothes on at the mall but idk.. I’ve struggled a lot with the heat recently, I used to always be cold all the time but now with my medical issues I’m just too warm constantly (⊙︿⊙✿) I’d look on Mercari japan or something but I want to be able to see the fabrics of things and make sure they’re lightweight enough, or at least be able to return them. 

I’ve been trying to make outfits for hot weather but I’ve sorta just been in an ugly phase I guess?? Some days I just feel ugly and ridiculous.. like nothing looks good on me and my makeup looks bad. I think I need to officially cut ties with instagram. I wish there was a way to keep the chat part and not the rest of the app, bc seeing posts that say other people look “bad” is just not healthy for me personally. I know I’d be happier just reading blogs and looking at magazines… but it’s the hardest social media for me to delete. I never had twitter and I deleted facebook a few months ago and felt instantly better. 

At least today I was able to feel cute and confident, and I hope that starts being the norm for me♥

I’ll figure it out eventually.. I guess maybe it’s an opportunity to destroy my reliance on people’s opinions and truly live what I see as the “gyaru spirit”, just wild and free. I don’t need to look like other gals or compare myself, I just need to look inside myself and be who i am.