Happy thoughts (✿◠‿◠)

 Hello!! Today I went to a Japanese tea ceremony that my painting teacher hosted. I’ve been looking forward to this for so long now! I’m way too tired to write a whole post but I’m just feeling overwhelmed by gratitude and wanted to write something ❀◕ ‿ ◕❀

Ok here’s one photo but the rest I’m saving for a real post xD 

When this year began, I promised myself that I’d keep pursing my passions, especially things I always dreamed of or have been interested in since I was a child. Ever since I was in middle school, I suppressed my thoughts and interests trying to fit in and make the bullies go away. Thats why I made that promise to myself this year, because giving up on others opinions of me and pursuing my interests has brought me so much joy. It’s like reconnecting with a part of myself that I had hidden for so long. 

I grew up admiring Chinese and Japanese art and I truly feel so grateful that I’m able to learn Japanese painting. It probably seems silly, but I’ve wanted to see a tea ceremony and wear a yukata since I was a kid. I always thought they were so beautiful and never thought I’d get the chance. Other than my wedding, I’ve never felt so beautiful. I was really sitting there thinking “I wish I could tell little Rae that she gets to do this someday”  I really felt like a princess. 

On my drive home I was thinking about how much painting class has had a positive impact on my life. I was truly so lucky to randomly meet my painting teacher at an art fair. I really think it was fate for us to meet and become friends. 

Even my interest in gyaru fashion has brought me so much joy. I’m getting emotional now … I’ve met one of my best friends because of gyaru and it’s given me so much confidence… it just feels like gyaru is an essential part of myself. 

Just looking back on it all makes me emotional and so grateful for the people who have helped me become confident and pursue my passions and just accepted me for who I am. I really feel like this is finally the year that I’m fully embracing who I am

Ok, sappy post over. Lol, 

I hope it doesn’t sound too silly, please stay tuned for normal people blog posts xD  

New make look

 Hello!! 🌸 

I’m just waiting for my morning coffee (✿◠‿◠) I’m later than I wanted to be but that’s ok 

It’s somehow snowing again, so I took the opportunity to wear an outfit i haven’t worn yet! I also tried a different make style and I think this is my new daily liner shape! I really love the big droopy look, even after trying a lot of other gal tutorials 

Ignore that I’m not wearing lipstick xD I just have one of the Dior balms in opalescent pink. I snack and drink water most of the day so I always feel like it’ll just come off anyways 

 

I’ll post my outfit later! Talk soon ★~(◡﹏◕✿)

Spring thoughts

 Hello! 

I don’t have much to say today ●︿● I’m going through something kinda rough rn … but I am standing up for myself. Over the past several months I’ve found my voice and stopped letting people push me around. I’m really proud of myself. I knew there would be conflict coming bc of course people don’t like it when you tell them to stop. It has gotten easier at least, and I feel a lot better when I go into those situations and say what I have to say instead of just hoping it will stop. 

I really feel like this year will be the year I finally find my voice and my confidence. I finally realized my life is mine only and I can do things I want to do without feeling guilty about it. I’m excited for what is ahead even though it’s rough right now. Everything will work out for the better when I protect my peace. 

Anyways. 

I’ve been trying different makeup styles. I got a new pen eyeliner yesterday, I thought it would be smoother than others I’ve tried but I feel like my line still always looks bumpy. xD if you have any tips let me know! 

This is the look I’ve tried a few times. I think I like it but I feel like it isn’t droopy enough?? Idk. I really like that big droop shape and it’s been weird trying to figure out how to make myself “feel” gal without doing my old makeup with a ton of waterline eyeliner … but I’m happy that I at least found products that don’t irritate my eyes! So maybe I’ll try to get more inspo photos or something  

Let me know if you have any makeup ideas ≧◡≦ I miss chatting with other gals about makeup!  

See you next time 🌸 

This week ★~(◡﹏◕✿)

 

Hello!! I've had such a busy week with work and I'm so happy to take a break now ★~(◡﹏◕✿)

I tried a few different eyeliner shapes this week! I don't think I like them as much as I like the one I posted about before though, but the upward wing on the other eyeliner is difficult to do with my eye shape ◄.► so I'm going to keep trying some more to see what I like! 

A few work outfits from this week! It suddenly got really cold again.

The distillery my husband and I hang out at frequently has new spring drinks ♥‿♥

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My buyee package is going to be delivered today! I've waited so long for it, it shipped a few weeks ago. 

I can't wait for the ego system mags ★~(◡﹏◕✿)  They're so hard to find, so when I saw these i bought them right away. I'm going to scan them and put them on my blog! 

I also got this alba scarf, but of course now it'll probably be spring weather xD but who knows, it was snowing earlier this week so maybe I'll get to wear it! 

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That's all for today!! I'm going to go run some errands and maybe try to get a pink lipstick since mine is super expired xD Talk soon!! 

Recently (✿◠‿◠)

 Hello!! I am so happy I found time to blog again today (✿◠‿◠)

I've been really happy with my outfits and makeup now that i've finally found makeup that works for me!! I wanna do a whole post dedicated to it eventually! 

A new Asian food hall opened up close to where I live and we've been there A TON. ofc I had to wear my alba shirt as soon as it got warm out too. I didn't get a photo but I had my favorite vegeterian sushi ♥‿♥

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My outfit from today! I can't wait to move so I can hang up my pretty mirror for outfit pics. I got a new coworker this week and she's super nice, I hope we're gonna be friends!! I still love my job so far which is great bc i worked some overtime to justify getting my hair done next month ♥╣[-_-]╠♥ I'm getting pink exte, basically highlights but didn't wanna bleach my hair so I opted for exte instead! 

This has been my make recently!! I really like it. I changed my eyebrows too and i love them so much. 

Today we went to the Asian place again and we tried a Korean beef bento box (✿ ♥‿♥) it was amazing. I visited the Japanese bakery like I always do xD so I have a strawberry cake waiting for me later! 

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That's all!! Talk soon  ★~(◡﹏◕✿)

Work co*des ｡･:*:･ﾟ★,｡･:*:･ﾟ☆

 Hi!! It has been such an exhausting couple of weeks, but everything is changing for the better!! I am so delayed on this post, I wrote it like a week or two ago xD

I was so excited when I went into work this week and saw my work friend in the office!! It's usually really quiet at the office since most people work from home. I just like having a reason to get dressed up and go somewhere everyday so I always go in. Plus most people there are young and friendly, and they like anime and art so I fit in pretty well. 

I didn't get photos of most of my outfits this week though ●︿●  Some of these are from last week!! 

Thank you Kieli for selling me these alba capris ♥‿♥ I seriously feel like I walked out of an old school mag when I wear them, I'm OBSESSED. I'm so happy bc they match all of these shirts I have from Pink since I have it in white, hot pink and green. xD 

ok that's all for today!! Gotta write more recent posts xD thanks for reading (✿◠‿◠)

Weekend .・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。.

 Hello!! 

This weekend was exhausting, and now I'm not feeling well ●︿● we are moving next month so i've been going through all my clothes and makeup etc so i can get rid of everything i don't need/want since we'll be downsizing for a while. I'm really excited to move tho bc our current place has a lot of space but it's been awful living in the building since the management won't take care of it. The next place is smaller but much nicer so i'm looking forward to it!! 

Today we went to painting class and I made these (▰˘◡˘▰)

I was browsing a lot of makeup this weekend since I found out i can't use talc or fragrance in my eye makeup. I was really hoping for pink and orange shades, but I found out that the dyes in those are actually common allergens so none of the hypoallergenic brands had them. I ended up getting this Clinique palette and their eyeshadow primer too to prevent any shadow from falling into my eyes. I'm kinda bummed they didn't have any colors I was in love with, but I'm hoping that I'll like these! At least there were shades other than brown, I would've been really upset then xD I prefer wearing cute and fun colors, and there were a couple shades they didn't have in stock that I might try in the future! 

I got new face powder, liner, and primer yesterday at the store. I tried the primer and powder today, but i think the primer isn't gonna work out bc my face was so gross and filmy when I washed it... I had to actually use a cleanser brush to even get my makeup off bc it almost felt waterproof, it was gross. I think the sunscreen in the primer just doesn't agree with my skin, but i'm sad because the innisfree sunscreen i was using has fragrance.... but idk, i might just go back to that since it didn't seem to be a trigger for my skin issues. My skin has been bad due to some other medical issues 〴⋋_⋌〵 don't wanna type a lot about that here, but it should be improving soon anyhow.  So anyways I guess i'm just going back to the original sunscreen, at least i know it didn't set off my dry eye!!  If you're curious, it was Beekman's milk primer.. don't try it xD 

I'll write an update with photos once I've tried everything! 

My husband went out with a friend tonight and there was a fair going on at the distillery they went to, so he brought me this squid plush as a surprise ≧◡≦  I love it so much and it really cheered me up since i'm not feeling well! 

Talk soon! ❀✿＊*

sad makeup update (◕︵◕)

I have sad news today (◕︵◕) remember how last week I was saying i was so excited to wear makeup again every day? I ended up triggering my dry eye somehow. This happens like once a year and I've never figured out what the problem ingredients are because it's not like a hives allergy type thing, so I can't get allergy tested for it. Anyways, I read up and chatted with my doctor about it and I'm pretty sure the issue is fragrance and talc, and also wearing lashes and lining my waterline especially on a daily basis. I've known the past two for a while, i just recklessly kept doing it anyway bc i like how it looks o(╥﹏╥)o 

But now I'm feeling upset bc I feel like i can't do gal looks anymore. I know I could just wear plain makeup but I don't feel like myself like that. I've been trying to look for old school looks today but I feel like they all have you lining the waterline/inside eye line or are for tan gals, which i'm not. I know it doesn't matter what people think but ... idk  o(╥﹏╥)o I feel like I would be an imposter doing old school gal makeup and not doing it "correctly". 

I really dont wanna give up on gyaru, i just don't know how to make makeup looks I like that are comfortable for me to wear. I want to do gyaru only on the weekends or something, because when I don't like my makeup I just don't feel like myself. 

I know i've sorta been on and off gal for the past year, but now that my mental health is much better I feel connected to gyaru again. It has always just felt like a part of myself and I don't want to lose it.

I found a couple inspo photos but idk if it will even be "gal enough" or whatever. I just found these through the scans i had saved in my google drive and on google search so I don't know who owns them. Someone shared a google drive of gal mags with a chat i was in years ago.  

I really love orange and pink eyeshadow

Sorry for the kinda depressing post :( 

Please share ideas or scans with me if you have any, I would super appreciate more inspo. I have 2 ego system mags on the way so i'm hoping maybe i'll find something there too!! 

 

Weekend fun v(=∩_∩=)ﾌ

Hello!! I hope you had a good week (✿◠‿◠) I've been so tired and busy, but it's all for the best since I've started at my new job and I've been able to get dressed up more!!

Last night, my husband and I went to a jazz bar to celebrate our friend's birthday! 

I really like how this outfit turned out! I kinda forgot scarves existed xD but I saw some old school gals wearing scarves this way, so I wanted to try it out!

My husband and I had already eaten dinner, so we just got drinks and a snack! These were Japanese yams. They had a really interesting flavor since they were cooked with miso! 

I also had a cute cocktail that was similar to a french 75! 

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Now for some work codes! I forgot to take photos a few days ●︿● which i'm sad about because I had a really cute outfit on, but I'll hopefully remember to get a photo next time I wear it! 

I love this jacket ♥‿♥

Wanted to try something sorta old school!! I felt super cute ★~(◡﹏◕✿) 

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* 　　 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

See you next time, thanks for reading!

Art Gallery (✿◠‿◠)

 Hello!! Today I wanted to tell you about my art gallery opening (✿◠‿◠)

I haven't posted much about it, but I've taken traditional Japanese painting classes for a couple years now. I grew up really loving traditional Japanese and Chinese art so it's been such a dream to go to painting class every week ≧◡≦  I never dreamed that my work would be displayed, since I've just been painting for fun and not trying to sell them, but I was super excited when my teacher/friend invited me and some other students to display our art at the gallery. She's a professor at a local college and since she is in charge of all the art classes, she chose the art to put in their new gallery! 

Over the past few years I've really been able to develop my own unique style and it was amazing being able to see my work on display ≧◡≦ I'm really proud of myself! 

I got to wear my Swankiss skirt for the first time! I wanted to match my paintings. It's hard to see in photos, but I use sparkly metallic watercolor in all of my paintings. I take a lot of inspiration from Jfashion and I really like when my paintings look dreamy and serene. 

Me and my art teacher ≧◡≦

These are the paintings that I have on display (✿◠‿◠)  

My husband's paintings are on display next to mine ♥‿♥ 

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Thank you for reading! 

New job codes

 Hello (✿◠‿◠) I finally got a new job and I started last monday! It's been going really well so far. Everyone is really friendly and it's a promotion from what I used to be doing before I had to leave my last job in the fall. It's a casual office so I've been enjoying wearing things I like and doing makeup everyday! 

Two office codes from earlier this week (✿◠‿◠)

The jobs I've had in the past always had catered lunches, but this place doesn't, so I was excited to pick out a lunchbox since i didn't have any! I've already put several keychains on it too ♥‿♥ 

Thanks for reading, see you soon!